I’m Sad
I’m Lonely
I’m Confused
I’m Frustrated
But I know I’ll be ok. I know God is teaching me something through this time.
I texted this note to one of my best friends last night. I prefaced the message with this tagline…. “I need to get honest”
For about a week I had experienced some major depressive and dark emotions. I am not sure where they came from, maybe it’s stress about upcoming stuff or just a season of life I’m in. But whatever the reason I just struggled to find joy last week. Thankfully, I went to a meeting last night and as usual walked away feeling relieved, refreshed and ready to tackle the insanity that lives inside me. That voice in my head that wants to tell me that I can still drink, that one pill wouldn’t hurt anything. The crazy voice insisting that life should bend to my every want and desire.
I walked out of my meeting last night loaded with ammunition ready to annihilate that voice.
And so that’s what I did.
First step, Get Honest – I identified why those emotions were emerging and thought about what I’d be doing differently to bring those emotions to the surface.
Second Step, Let Someone Know – The emotions, the darkness, the enemy loses its power as soon as I began to confess to another the nature of my problems.
Third Step, Turn it over – I knew ultimately God was the only one that could completely restore me back to sanity. I can’t beat this on my own, trust me I’ve tried.
By getting honest with my gut level emotions and expressing those to someone else, I took all the power away from them. As soons as I typed those letters my fear and anxiety just fluttered away. I can honestly say that I instantly felt better. The joy came back immediately.
I came home, turned on the new jam from Hillsong Young and Free and started writing this blog. Hoping to inspire you to know that you don’t have to live in fear, anxiety or shame today! You can get your joy back! It’s just a few steps away.
Challenge: Make the decision today to get honest with yourself and with someone you trust. Let them know what is really going on in your life. Don’t let the darkness have power over you any longer.
Get honest and let God set you free!
Hope is Alive!
