I think one of the main reasons why I chose to believe in God is simply because of this….
Even in my darkest moments, He never gave up on me and never stopped pursuing me.
It’s because of that kind of unfathomable love, that irresistible attraction, that I chose to love Him back. I knew who I was at that time of darkness and I knew I did NOT deserve that type of love. Yet He gave it, and gave it so freely. God was there for me at my bottom, at the end of myself His love was just waiting there for me. Not angry, bitter or telling me “I told you so”. Just smiling, ready to catch me as I fell and take me to the light.
If God chooses me even when I am immersed in sin and darkness and loves me enough to bring me out of it, then to me I have nothing else to say but yes.
Yes! I will love him back.
Yes! I will give Him everything I got.
Yes! Each and every day I will do my best to live in the light, not in the darkness.
Yes! I will tell others of what He did in me.
God loved me at my worst. That is amazing. Steeped in darkness, He reached down and gave me a new life. A life in the light.
This song from David sums up pretty well.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
Psalm 139
