My Moment

my moment

“We do not remember days, we remember moments” – Ceasre Paverse

It was a normal morning. It started off just like almost every other morning had the previous three years.  I woke up blurry eyed, hungover, jonesing for something to take away the pain.

My legs were kicking and my stomach was aching. I took my time getting ready for the day, stopping every few minutes as my gut rejected all the previous night had forced upon it.

It was miserable, but it was normal.

With a hand full of pills in my pocket and a few more waiting for me in my top desk drawer, I headed out. A couple Red Bull pit stops later and I made it into work about 9:45.

Locked inside my office, my day began. Chopping, smashing and lining up 3 beautiful rails that would be my breakfast. A mixture of Oxy’s and Lortabs flew up my nose, at about the same time I heard a pounding on my office door!

My life changed in this moment. It was at this precise moment that everything began to change. It was April 6th, 2011. 5 years ago today. (click here to read exactly what happened)

I often ponder what God must have been thinking the days leading up to this moment. Was He excited? Was He smiling? Did He wonder what choice I would make when given the opportunity? Or did He already know? What did God think about this moment?

Of all my experiences the past 5 years, it was in this moment where everything stood in the balance.  I could go and open the knocking door, face the truth and begin to change. Or I could open the door, continue living in denial and run from reality like I had done for so long. This moment offered two distinct options. Freedom or continued bondage.

I’ve often said that what changed for me in that moment was the choice I made to finally confess. Instead of arguing over details or trying to manipulate my way out of it, I just admitted the truth that everyone else already knew. I was caught and it was time to get honest. It was my moment.

Since that moment at roughly 10AM on April 6th 2011 nothing has been the same. Life has truly been magical.

That magic moment brought so much truth into my life. I learned that confrontation breeds change. That God is not, was not and will never be, mad at me. I realized that He had a plan for my life. I began to see that my life was worth living and living to the full. I chose freedom and I’m so glad I did.

That moment changed me forever.

I believe moments like this happen every day for so many of us. I believe God provides “a way out” of pain, divorce, addiction, guilt, shame and resentment all the time. Sometimes it’s through people and sometimes it’s through circumstances. But the moments of change are always present. Freedom is always one moment away.

The question is, “What will you do with the moments God gives you today?”

Could it be that the life you’ve always wanted hangs in the balance of the choices you make in the moments God gives you today?

My life is proof that that is possible.

So make the most of the moments God gives you. Choose to embrace challenge, step into confrontation and as often as you can, confess you baggage.

Life is meant to be lived free. May you step into the moments that God gives you today and find the freedom you deserve.

Hope is Alive!


Yesterday I Stopped Dreaming

stopped dreaming

I was looking through old blog posts last night and came across one that stopped me dead in my tracks. It was originally written on February 18, 2013 and you’ve got to read it.

If you’re feeling as though God is calling you to something greater, then read this NOW!

If you want to see how God can provide, then read this NOW!

If you need some inspiration this morning, then read this NOW! (more…)

Quit Hiding Out In Detroit!


It’s amazing to think that we are, each of us, a God-created and eternal being with a tremendous power to affect change around the world… and that most of us don’t walk in that identity. Why, it would be like being a folk singer who recorded a couple of albums in the 1970s, then faded into obscurity and a life as a blue-collar laborer, then getting a phone call thirty years later informing you that not only had your albums had gone multi-platinum in South Africa and Australia and that you were hugely popular over there, but that you had inadvertently contributed to the eradication of apartheid, South Africa’s government-mandated racism. (more…)

When Opportunity Knocks


I don’t know about you, but I love this time of year. Christmas has just ended; the house is fresh with gifts and leftovers and a new year is right around the corner. I love the thought of a clean slate, a fresh start, a new beginning. With my background I guess that seems to make sense. But this year more than ever before I am overflowing with optimism about what the New Year will bring. Personally I’ve got three huge new things to release in January alone. Not to mention a new book releasing later this spring, over twenty speaking engagements already booked and trips to Israel and Vietnam planned for the fall. But my feeling of excitement goes well beyond the little world I live in. I’m feeling a strong sense that God is about to do something in YOUR life that’s never been done. Yes that’s right. In YOUR life! You the faithful reader of this blog…. (more…)

The quickest way to a miracle

Do you want to see a miracle?

Learn how to give yourself away.

The past seven days have been full of opportunities to give back to others what God has so freely given to me. I’ve been able to sit down and talk about decision making with fathers and sons, discuss alcoholism with pastors kids and counsel old high school friends through social media, all while passing along my life lessons and experience with five of the most special men on this planet. Today my life is all about giving back. And I love it! It’s incredibly rewarding and no day is ever the same. However at times it can be terribly challenging and excruciatingly lonely. But in the end I believe I am fulfilling the singular purpose of my existence each time I give of myself to another.

I also think that God is honored and pleased when we give to others. When we do we are practicing the second most important commandment ‘Love your neighbor as yourself‘.

So what about you? You have gifts, talents, experience, counsel, ears to hear and arms to hold. Right? Well how are you using them? Today I urge you to give them all away. Freely. All the greatness God has blessed upon you, give it away.

Hug someone who needs it.

Love someone who doesn’t deserve it.

Forgive when its unexpected.

Listen to those who just need to talk. 

Pray for those that hurting.

Walk with those in need of exercise

Teach those who just can’t seem to understand

Mentor those no one else will

Give yourself away & watch the miracle begin to happen.

People are often confused about this act of service and want to make it something bigger than it is. Giving yourself away is not about being perfect or doing something extravagant. It’s simply about being willing to love someone else. To take the energy that you would have used on yourself and expend it on another. What happens after you do this is the miracle. It ‘s seeing lives change because of what God has allowed YOU to do. The moment you realize that what you have done has changed someone else’s life, that’s the miracle moment.

I wrote about this in my book, here’s an excerpt from chapter 8….

The miracle behind giving back is how it strengthens you. So whether your personality is similar to mine or not, I challenge you to push yourself beyond what you are accustomed. Stretch yourself and see what happens.

Addict or not, we’ve all been given an amazing gift—a brand-new existence—and with that comes responsibility and with that responsibility comes influence. Courageously sharing our stories of hope and passing along lessons we’ve learned should become an innate part of our existence. 

The Big Book again sums it up well when speaking to this charge to give it away: “Never avoid these responsibilities, but be sure you are doing the right thing if you assume them. Helping others is the foundation stone of your recovery. A kindly act once in a while isn’t enough. You have to act the Good Samaritan every day, if need be.”

– Taken from “Hope is Alive” – Pick a copy here:


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